A Dollar Out of Fifteen Cents

Friday nights just aren’t the same when you’re not laying on my lap

Dinners out are tasteless and the idea of dessert is not happening 

At least for not now

The food we once ate and the wine we once drank 

The thousands of times you stepped through that door 

never shined as bright as it did tonight at 8:19 

Weeks and weeks of anticipation built up the anxiety 

as you once again knocked on my heart and opened my soul 

to the dreams of what could have been and the realization of what has become

Lately, the nights with you aren’t quite the same

Filled with the uncertainty of our love

and if it should or shouldn’t be

You’re walking out the door telling me you ‘can’t see me no more’ 

As the tears fall down our cheeks like raindrops turning into puddles on the floor

Wondering if this is the last time I’ll see your face

The hug that lasted forever

The embrace of a lifetime

Not wanting to let go

Not knowing if that will be the last time I ever hold you

In reality, tonight should have never been

The lies we live just to see your smile and feel your warmth

Deception never felt so good and never stung so bad 

As it does when you walk out that door

For the last time